29 November 2006

miffed

what is it about people?
we are such a weird and awkward species.

like seriously.......sometimes we are like ROBOTS!

i know this is going to sound crazy. but one day when you're out to eat somewhere, watch how people eat. how we shove food into our mouths. it's kinda hilarious. cause without food and water we would die. so it's like survival.

just like animals have to eat to live so do we.....circle of life.

but it just seems different when you watch humans do it.

everyday we get up, eat breakfast, go to work, earn piddly amounts of money, eat lunch, commute home, eat dinner, do chores, watch t.v........is this really what life's all about?

seems a little blah to me............

25 November 2006

looking forward

i've been thinking about the past this evening.
a little about me.
some of the things that have changed.
what's gotten better.

i am realizing the growth that has occurred,
the openness
the struggle
the confidence
the strength.

i'm excited to be looking foward.

i won't forget the past.
i'm not necessarily leaving it behind,
b/c without it i wouldn't be here.

it's still a part of me.
it always will be.

but now.........
i'm in a new & better place,
for me.

24 November 2006

mayfair martini's and other thksgvg loves

well thanksgiving was great and it was good to spend time with the family. i haven't been home for thanksgiving for 3 years.....basically since before my dad passed away. so this was the first thanksgiving i've been at home and he hasn't been at the kitchen counter makin' all the goods (deviled eggs, stuffing, homemade noodles, etc.). i know he was there in spirit though and that's all that matters.